I hate peace
Re: Hey, let's just call it the inner realm, shall we? -- Joy Wisdom Top of thread Forum
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01/31/2005, 07:21:10
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Hello Joy,

I hope this beginnings of a reasonable exchange can remain so. Let me tell you a little about myself. I received K in 1978.

On short comment about the optic nerve thing. In the early days, as I understand it, people were told to "press hard" to experience light. If you do this, it does actually excite the optic nerve and cause you to see light. Thankfully this technique was revised before I received Knowledge as I understand that it can actually damage your eyes permanently. That isn't a concept, it's human physiology. But yes I experienced light without pressing.

But I really wanted to address your comment about peace. I think you or it may have been another premie has mentioned that frequently lately. After the ashrams shut down in early 80s, I was still young and started to investigate the world around me. I still considered myself a premie and still meditated, but started making new friends and doing other things. I began to realize, that my enjoyment of life was much greater living in the "world of maya" that we always tried so hard to avoid. Slowly my interest in premies, Rawat and Knowledge just faded away.

I didn't need to read EPO or anything else, though I was very much bothered by the revisionism that had already started. I didn't want to be a part of a pack of lies, whatever the higher purpose might be. That was totally contrary to what I understood Knowledge to be about. If people have to be tricked into it, then how much value can it have?

Nevertheless, the deciding factor for me really was my "experience" of life. It was simply much better without Rawat. Well that was many years ago already. I guess you are wondering why I wrote such a provocative title to this post. The reason is that today inner peace is something I place little value in. I actually am happiest being a little on edge. It is when I am most creative. Lying on the beach is like torture for me. My joy in life comes from creating cool stuff and coming up with interesting ideas. It is what I do all day long and I love it. And most importantly I cherish my relationships with the people whom I hold dearest. So inner peace? Not my thing!

Well that's my experience.

But let me correct something. I may not like inner peace, but I very much believe in outer peace, for myself and the rest of the world.






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