I think for all of us who have exed after long term involvements with rawat, the process has gone something like this, in general terms...
1-a "final drip", which caused you to exit, although you also realize that there was steady flow of drips for years, somewhat suppressed, that also begin to surface....
2-disbelief that you could have been duped or strung along for so long (no one in any group wants to admit that they were taken...)
3-deisre to publicly disavow connection to rawat or to speak out about his BS (although this depends on ones circumstances)
4-Anger stage, which passes...
5-A new beginning, in which your "old self" re-emerges, and the premie persona is shed....I found old problems and issues emerged which I had conveniently denied or swept under the rug as a premie...once I looked at them and dealt with them, I found great satisfaction in just living a "normal" life and not having to do the premie thing anymore....work, relationships, family and everything in general became more real and fulfilling...I realized that I gave way way too much unexamined power to prem rawat and how deeply it had hurt and limited my life...also, how wonderful life can be without the drag of a "perfect master" around me....