You guys, bless your fun-loving little hearts, were not good premies. 

In your opinion. We thought we were good premies, good “lovers of Truth” and with big hearts. I thought I had explained that.

You yourself admit that you valued your opinion over Rawat's.  That was sacrilege to those of us who took him at his word. 

Sacrilege is too strong a word in my opinion. I can remember hearing Maharaji's take on nutrition and immediately discounting it as nonsense. If I want an opinion on nutrition I’ll go to an expert on nutrition.

And though you blamed us for being "uptight corporate zealots" we were just people sincerely trying to understand what Rawat wanted and acting accordingly.

I’m not blaming anyone. I’m simply explaining that there were different types of premie and I’m obviously not explaining it too well.

You say you might have not done so because of arrogance or stupidity.  I tend to think people who shielded themselves against Rawat the way you seemed to have done, feigned ignorance and stupidity as a survival technique.  I could never prove it but that's my theory.

So now we know each other’s theories. I say different strokes for different folks. I say people are different - premies were different. You do know that during the 70s there were premies who drank and smoked? The ashram premies sang arti and went to bed and others went clubbing. You must have known this. 

So now it's quite interesting, isn't it?  The cult has taken that "spaced out" premie justification and run with it.

The cult? Not too sure what you mean by this. If you think I’m apologizing for the cult you are dead wrong. I’m an ex.

Suddenly, it was the roque "uptight corporate zealots" that brought in that crazy devotional trip to begin with.  Lies, lies and more lies. 

Maharaji brought in the crazy devotional trip and the "uptight corporate zealots" brought into it. That is how it was. For whatever reason though, not all of us bought into the devotional trip. At the risk of sounding like a broken record, there were many different types of premie not just the corporate zealots.

We ashram premies and others who tried to do the full surrender trip were just people caught up in our faith in Maharaji.  Period.

How could I disagree with that?