Steve,

This has to be one weird argument.  We both think Rawat was full of shit, we're both glad we're out of it but still, there is this issue about what it meant to be a good premie.  (I feel like a reformed Nazi arguing, solely for argument's sake, with someone else about what it meant to truly follow the Feurher.  Anyway, God bless the human ability to conceptualize and have rational hypothetical discussions like this.)

But you're still wrong. 

You say:

I was a good premie because:

1. I did not put off until tomorrow what I could do today
2. I constantly meditated and remembered holy name or at least did my best (and sometimes hash helped) 
3. I never delayed in attending satsang
4. I never left room for doubt in my mind (i.e. did my best to keep it free from concepts), and
5. I always had faith in god.

But, Steve, those weren't the Commandments, were they?  I know you were just being funny but there's some truth to be ferreted out here.  Rawat made it clear, at least to us, that we shouldn't smoke dope.  He would not have respected your view that hash helped your meditation.  And as for never leaving doubt in your mind, that wasn't him commanding you to keep it free from concepts.  That was him commanding you to have no doubt about anything he said.  This was a constant theme in his satsang.  Trusting Maharaji meant trusting him despite whatever our puny, vile minds had to say.  Yet, as you've already said, you sometimes valued your opinion over his.  In other words, you doubted his wisdom.  You doubted your Guru Maharaj Ji.  Bad premie!  Bad, bad premie!

You might have been "King of the World" but I was trying to be something called a "devotee".  Perhaps you've heard the term somewhere?