Devotion means loyalty, commitment, and dedication. But to what? Devotion to holy name, my personal experience of Knowledge, the experience I have inside when I turn out the lights and meditate. This is where it was at for me, not a guy living in Malibu. It was about self-knowledge.

"Devotion" meant devotion to him.  Devotion to the guru. 

As Rawat put it in this attached Q&A session from the Gallery:

"Devotion is the flow of love from a devotee to his Lord and darshan is seeing the Lord's physical form."

If you weren't into this then you weren't playing Rawat's game and that makes you, by definition, a bad premie.  I mean, come on, why can't you admit this? 

As for doing whatever Maharaji says for the rest of your life, that's exactly what we were supposed to want to do.  Again, if you weren't into it, good for you.  But that's what the trip was all about.  There's no denying.