I think a lot of people who'd got K when everything was much more free & easy, really didn't like the way the cult had developed by 1973, & rightly or wrongly singled out certain prominent individuals as being implicated in that. I lost several friends after that festival, whom I'd encouraged to go on the perhaps naive assumption that they would 'get it'. Well, they did, & compared it to a Nuremburg Rally. I had to agree, but unfortunately my explanation that it didn't matter too much because GMJ was God, fell on deaf ears.

..were you not 'fanatically single minded, totally inflexible...' etc?

No I wasn't.

Wouldn't you have leapt at the chance of being close to Maharaji personally, and/or having a high-profile service, aka 'slave driver'

No I wouldn't.

I disliked him then, not that I ever admitted it to anyone. I had conned my way into a K session with Moni Bai in March '72, largely out of curiosity, & was convinced it must be true because I recognised the light from the last time I'd seen it.......as a baby in a pram. I checked out the details with my mother, which freaked her out completely. I mean that isn't supposed to be possible is it?

So there I was, stuck.

....didn't you want to be driven like a slave, surrendering your mind in true service,....

You've got to be kidding me. I wanted to be as free as a bird in the sky, & I didn't buy any of it, it was forced down my throat.

Don't get me wrong though, I hold no animus.