lakeshore - that's why the whole cult thing had such a big impact on the rest of my life. I sincerely and wholeheartedly gave my all to prem, believing his claims that he was greater than God. To find out in the end that none of it was real, well, that caused serious trust issues on the one hand, but also left me susceptible to other cult type organisations on the other. I was one of those sincere seekers of truth and I just kept trying to find 'it' (truth).
I have found my own truth, but it isn't in any other person or group. Today I am a much more sceptical person than I think I would have been had I not stumbled across the fake and fraud that is prem.
I do regret having had that one knowledge session because it means I was part of the fraud. The one girl who said she didn't experience anything was the only honest one there. She couldn't relate to prem as the source of it all, so I knew she 'wasn't ready' (hadn't been brainwashed enough) but I was leaving that city and wasn't going to be returning, so figured she was 'ready enough'. But she knew. I was just so deep in at that point, I couldn't see the forest for the trees.
I hope she ran away, and that all the others in the session finally saw that the emperor had no clothes on.
