I find I am wanting more and more to spend time home alone. I like my own company. I have a lot to do.
Rawat has him. He has to live with himself. As one woman recently said to me - oh anything's better than staying home alone, and she shuddered - this did not surprise me. So no, I don't think we need to wait for karma to kick in, it happens every night.
I always remember the previous generation were big on saying to us do everything because you don't want to end up regretting what you didn't do. And I can appreciate the advice but I think there is a season of regret no matter what you do and I've taken the approach of relax into it, let it tell you what it wants, it's ok.
I have some painful regrets. I mean it's inevitable - brain crushed by cult as teenager, soul crushed by gay in denial man I spent my whole life with - the lies pinned me in the dust like a forked stick. It was a tough slog out of my 40's but so worth it. It's been like going from black and white tv to colour.
Is this what the previous generation meant when they talked about character-building?
