The problem with reading about something that I do not know much about, like sexual abuse, is that I tend to distrust what I read: I only really believe it when I am presented with corroborating evidence. This tendency is a somewhat unfortunate consequence of my involvement with SSB. So it would take a lot of time for me to study the subject of sexual

Still no excuse.  You are in big trouble on this issue, because nobody is ever going to provide you "corroberating evidence!"  Plus, now you're kind of calling me a liar.

I'm very tired of all your excuses, Andries.  You are not a baby.  You have been out of your cult for what, almost five years?  You're just making excuses because you don't want to do the work it takes to get over your cult.  Whether that's because you're too lazy or too afraid is something for you to figure out for yourself.  But, you should know that nobody else is going to do that work for you because life doesn't work that way.  So go ahead and stay stuck, if that's what you want, but don't blame anyone else for your stagnation but yourself. 

And, if you can't muster the courage to even read something about sexual abuse so that you can become informed, then you don't deserve to even talk to one survivor.