Andries,

You insult me and other ex-premies here.  You act as if ex-premies just blinked twice one day and all of the emotional pain they have felt as a result of being in Rawat's cult just suddenly disappeared for them.  If that's what you think you are so wrong.  When you make statements like "Oh, I just want to take a pill and forget it all," you minimize the emotional pain that every other cult member has ever felt and found the strength and courage to work it all out.

You also insult me personally, because when I was 36 or 37 years old, I made the commitment to recover from my horrendous childhood abuse at any cost.  I was sick of feeling so bad all of the time, so I made that promise to myself, and it cost me closer to $100,000 to do that (not $1,000 for a "forgetful pill), not to mention the emotional and mental pain of ten solid years of recovery work in therapy.

I suppose that's why I don't have much patience for people like you, who whine and complain and wish for "forgetful pills" because I know how hard it is to go through therapy, face all the sh*t I had to face and then move on with my life.  Furthermore, it was just about the time that I did get to the point of recovery from all my childhood abuse that I realized I had been a cult member, and then I had to deal with that on top of everything else.

Then I found the ex-premie forum and I found people here who have gone through the great emotional pain and and mental anguish from having spent 25 to 30 YEARS in a cult, but they didn't complain and wish for "forgetful pills."  They talked on this forum, they wanted to figure it all out, they wanted to work out their problems and did, and that has taken tremendous courage too.

So please don't go complaining to me that it hurts too much, please!