In your post you refer to reading Bob Mishler's stuff on an "anti-premie" site.  So far as I know the main place that Bob Mishler's stuff is on is ex-premie.org (EPO).

Maybe you don't see the difference, or maybe you don't care, however EPO is not an anti premie site.  Far from it.  EPO (and the webmaster of EPO can correct me if I am wrong) does not seek to be anti premie, rather it is a site with contributions from a wide variety of people who have chosen to no longer follow Maharaji for many reasons. Hence the name ex-premie. EPO does not seek to "stop" people following Maharaji, after all it is peoples free will if they wish to follow Maharaji or not follow Maharaji.

You have chosen to follow Maharaji in spite of the "wobbles" you have felt, that is your perogative.  However what is your appetite for more "wobbles"?

You said:

Eventually I agreed (with myself!) that it didn't matter WHAT people say Maharaji has done, why they say he did it etc

But what if WHAT people say is actually true?  What then?

If you don't want any more "wobbles" then I strongly suggest you do not read EPO, do not participate in this forum, do not educate yourself about cults, do not raise any doubts in your mind.  That should do it.  Just keep watching them Videos and Satellite transmissions, or as you quite rightly put it "listen and watch and find yourself tuned in to an experience inside that brings peace love and understanding."  But ask yourself "How deep is that love and understanding?"