I can't have a rational discussion with you.  We have differing points of view.  Since you don't believe in God, what can I say?  If there is no God, there is one though, then nothing means anything, does it?  How can you not believe in something that doesn't exist?  If it didn't exist, you couldn't even not believe it, could you?  

So you continue on your dark path.  Far be it from me to point out that what M is offering will last me until my very last breath.  Since K simply reveals the self-effulgent light that resides within, I would like to point out that one day, that thing will leave you.  Did you every really practise going within?  Or were your days as a premie all show and no substance?  I really do pity you.  Rejecting the means to experience the true you inside.  What a waste.