Are you suggesting I keep my hope alive only through dishonesty?

What if you are wrong about Maharaji. Does that mean you are in fact dishonest? Or does your honesty still hold? After all there are a lot of honest people who are dead wrong.

What makes you think a path of honesty leads to the light of hope? It didn't for so many honest people who were hopelessly and in the end, desperately wrong.

We all want life to be defined by either black or white so that in our imagination we can find ourselves on the side of right. How can you come to terms with finding yourself on both sides, and again somewhere in between. Now that takes honesty.