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See, that's what I have tried to figure out...how does rat do it? Is it like a teenie bopper's crush on a movie star or rock star? Is it like the infatuation with Lady Diana? It's sure not his looks. It can't be his voice, which is irritating in the extreme---though I have heard premies say they just love to listen to his voice. They can't tell you a word he said, when questioned, other than: "it was so wonderful". Maybe it's impossible to understand what his "hook" is, probably there's more than one. And maybe even if I did understand how he did it, it would not make living with the aftermath any easier.
Rawat should be charged with the destruction of people's souls. Daily I am subjected to the sight of an intelligent, talented, beautiful human being, whom I love dearly, sitting in front of the computer screen for hours, hanging on the canned words of a person who does not know he exists and does not care, and would not care if he knew. How can such a relationship continue? It is not fed by anything except what the premie imagines. There is nothing coming from rawat through the computer. Nothing is being received because there is nothing there. Whatever the premie is getting from the hours in front of TV and DVD and computer, is coming from their own wishful thinking. What I don't understand is, how does the rat make it keep on working? It surely can't be charisma; he has none. Is there such a deep psychological scar that he holds people through sheer fear? How utterly contemptible, if true.
Thanks, NAR, for your input. I just keep struggling on, not understanding, desperately wishing I could break through to the real person who is trapped in the chokehold of rawat. Last night, I nearly threw in the towel; I'd had enough. Today, I don't know. Maybe I can get through the poison holding him; I don't know.
Oh, EV monitors, and I know you are reading this, do take a break and go the inbox on ThePrimeRatFund.urg and answer some of the e-mail questions you have received. It would be so nice to have an answer to at least some of them.
Modified by premie_spouse at Fri, Dec 10, 2004, 17:31:41
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