PS,

I can understand your difficulty in making sense of this.  Additionally, I understand how difficult it is to get through to someone who is hooked...... after all, "I" was one of those hooked folks and sometimes even "I" wonder how it all happened and why "I" didn't figure it out sooner. 

I think, at least back then, that alot of us were on prior spiritual quests, for lack of another name for it, and we were ripe for the picking.  Many of the folks doing psychedelics weren't just doing it to get a "general high," but were thinking that it could show them the way to gawd!  Now, comes all these people (and there were a fair number of them) saying that your "dreams have come true," the lvivng gawd is on the planet and he's in this little dude's body and it "is so wonderful." 

Well, being the "searching" (read that: gullible) people that we were, it was a dream come true...... just like all the "books" said.  He was HERE!  What was the hook that got me? How did "I" know it was HIM? I can tell you for certain what it was, specifically what it was, believe it or not.  I had had some very powerful spiritual experiences prior to meeting up with any  premie or M.  The problem was, they were temporary experiences and the "down," was VERY DOWN!  I'm talking incredible "spiritual highs" and unbelievably hellish lows!  In the midst of one of those "lows," I found a book called, "Who is Guru Maharaji?"  Sound familiar?   Yup, a book, too!  Anyway, in the middle of that book, which somehow I had magically turned to the question and answer pages, I read something that blew me away!  What was it?  I'll tell you!  A premie (or someone unidentified) asked if M could "show you god."  M, without hesitation said, "YES!"  Now?  Yes, right now!  THAT WAS THE HOOK!  All I ever wanted was to KNOW GOD!  Forever, permanently in god-consciousness..... liberated.  That is all I had wanted for the very longest time and every moment that is all I considered....... Obsessed?  YOU BET!

That is my thumbnail story......... that is how I got hooked.  All the "magical happenings" before and after (which I haven't really touched here) didn't hurt that "hooking" either.

THIS is what you are up against!  But I can tell that you are one very loving, very patient person.  Getting through this toxic stuff is really hard....... putting up with it, like you are, is just as hard!  Hopefully, I have given you a glimmer of that which afflicts your loved-one.  It's a siren-song and it is POWERFUL! But, just like every other falsehood, the cracks start developing in the "boat." Sooner or later, those cracks start to leak pretty badly.  The promises broken, in my case, helped alot!  THe unconditional love of my family helped even more...... heck.... they were demonstrating more love than "I" was and "I" was supposed to be so spritually advanced..... drip, drip, drip!