Hi Emile!  Thanks for this topic--I see, as I get further and further along in my recovery from all that premie stuff, just why it was so difficult to talk about Knowledge and Prem Rawat, even as a premie!  I couldn't understand why I felt so awkward and stupid, so often, when I seemed to be having some good experiences myself! I had to overcome all sorts of stuff to be able to do it!  Basically what I was doing was betraying my own deeper instincts, but what I thought I was looking for seemed to override that for a while: ( a rather long while, 21 years!).

I can see how I was a good candidate for premiedom. I am a very suggestible person (or was!), and have a vivid imagination.  Writers, poets, artists, visionaries often are--and it's my guess, although I have no factual evidence for this, that such people made good material for the plan.  What we didn't know was what "the plan" really was.  Always referred to as the Master plan, but did it really include everyone?  I think not.

I am SO glad I don't have to try to explain this to anyone anymore!  And I can really relate to your comment about people not being willing to admit they were ever a part of it!  That probably is the best protection for Prem Rawat's purposes--except for the little insecurities of not knowing who's going to blow the whistle next!    Could be someone rather close to the throne...

Thanks,

Shelagh