"For starters, what makes you think your little experience is anything close to the potential of Knowledge?"
This is the argument of a confidence trickster. You keep the mark under control by promising more of...whatever.
The bottom line is that premies are dysfunctional individuals with, collectively, a high suicide rate. (We all know a few premie suicides.) Who wants more of that?
Once again, Jonx, you take the stance that your experience is so much greater than, well, anybody's. We've only got your word for that. If a "spiritual" experience doesn't increase your ability to face truth--and in your case it certainly hasn't--then what use is it?
Neville B