This is not a moment to feel compassion toward you, but pitty.

Second, whatever pleasure you have from practicing your meditation, was brought to you courtesy of Maharaji. He made it available, taught you, and reminded you time and again of its value. And here you are today giving no credit at all to him. Foolish!

Foolish?  You are so far from knowing how ridiculous you appear. 

THAT gift giver, THAT best friend, THAT devotion, THAT wasting time listening to a drunk preach THAT peace, THAT  "I'm so especial" attitude, THAT not so free gift, THAT not so peaceful adulterer master, THAT readiness to lie premies have mimicking their LIAR master, THAT bad memory, THAT slavery, THAT .....IS REAL FOOLISHNESS.

Thanks once more Jonx.