From your post:-

But people who post here seem to have accepted that I signed that false EV affidavit because I was afraid of my wife's “rath”. Anybody who had bothered to read the later affidavit I wrote and presented to the Brisbane Supreme Court or my court testimony as a witness for John MacGregor would know that was not the reason. These leaps to wrong judgment (I'm not sure if you have done this) show more about their prejudices and nothing about my wife's character.

From your second affidavit:-

6. Previously, on or about 9 October 2003 Mr Scattini had visited my home with a court order allowing him to search my computer. At that time I told Mr Scattini that the only thing that mattered to me was keeping my wife out of the legal matter and that she not find out about it. I said to Mr Scattini:

Gubler: "Oh my god, what will my wife say if she finds out about this.”

6.1 I was very distraught. My wife has been a devoted member of the Maharaji cult for about 30 years. I believed that her finding out what I had done would severely damage our marriage. I love my wife very much and was heartsick at this prospect.

In response to my words, Mr Scattini said to me:

Mr Scattini: "The applicants are anxious to keep this secret as well; and you'll he happy to know that you are under a legal obligation not to tell anyone about this."

7. On the occasion of Mr Scattini's visit to my home on 23 October 2003, 1 felt that I was under severe pressure, because my wife was due home any minute and I wanted Mr Scattini out of my home before my wife came home. My dilemma was that, if I continued to argue with Mr Scattini about what he insisted I sign, my wife would come home and would find out what was going on. I was feeling cowardly and humiliated. I caved in and signed the affidavit that Mr Scattini prepared for me without any consultation with me. I signed the affidavit knowing it was untrue in material ways that I describe below. But I was afraid to not sign it. I was afraid out of my wits and would have signed anything Mr Scattini put in front of me. I thought that if I signed it, that Mr Scattini would leave immediately and I would not be found with Mr Scattini by my wife; and therefore she would not find out about the legal case and what I had done. I deeply regret my cowardice. I knew I was doing the wrong thing by signing that affidavit, but I did it anyway.

I'd be interested in hearing how you reconcile these two quotes.

Regarding leaking the documents, these were not 'attacks on the Godhead' and I cannot see any reason why you could not have admitted leaking them to your wife. There was nothing in the documents that reflected particularly badly on Rawat or his teachings. My analogy with the local church seems perfectly fair even after reading your long thoughtful post. In fact, the points you make in your post only reinforce my analogy.

No, from everything you say, I remain convinced your excessive and bizarre fear ("afraid out of my wits") arise out of residual cult indoctrination, and not out of love and respect for your wife.