Thanks for discussion from the French forum.  I only know enough French to be dangerous, and certainly not enough to have a philosophical conversation.

Speaking personally, I don't believe I ever had much of a "worshipful nature."  So, I always felt a fish out of water trying to worship Prem Rawat as he expected all of us to do, to the point where he spent hours having us kiss his feet and he paraded around in front of us to music half-naked in a Krishna crown.  Really, it never worked for me.  The way to deal with that in the cult was to blame myself, and then try to cling ever more to Prem Rawat, hoping he would "save me" "by his grace" from my deficiencies as a properly worshipful devotee.  I also thought if I could get that, then I would finally get "the experience" that was supposedly there.

So, when I left the cult, I didn't really feel a lack of worship.  I really can't say I have since, either.  So, there might be natural variation there.  What I did feel the lack of, was a cause, like, as a premie, thinking I was helping to bring peace to the world (which became impossible to believe towards the end, and Rawat also disparaged, although he seems to have revived that these days), and being part of a team or group, maybe the social context of being a premie.  I was sick of that towards the end, so that didn't hold me either, and when I left in 1983, the "group" was downplayed, and only worshipping and devoting ("surrendering") to Maharaji was emphasized as important by Rawat.

So, for me, the cult was replaced with personal relationships which were much, much deeper than any I had in the cult, because we weren't supposed to really have them, and they were "lesser" in any event.  This did take some time, though, because I had shut that down pretty well under premie indoctrination.

Second, I guess political and social causes have also come to the forefront.  In reality, despite Renne Davis, very few people who became premies were really involved in social/political causes before that, despite the stereotype of the 60s youth becoming premies.  But that kind of concerted activism is important to me, and way more fulfilling than anything I did as a premie, which was all very constipated.

I'm not a religious person, maybe you could say I'm a humanist, and I feel very comfortable with that, and even as I get older, I really do get excited about life, and even really small things, and I enjoy not having the dysfunctional Rawat belief system that some things are more real than others, that you have to look and listen with only part of your being, and that a whole section of your being (mind) is evil and antagonistic to your happiness.  Without that destructive belief system, things are just more integrated, on the whole.  They certainly are more real. 

And I think that's the main thing I would say about Rawat and the cult, and many of the premies, they aren't real.  They aren't really themselves.  They have this buffer between themselves and life, which I do not want, and I have tried it both ways.