Karen, I can't believe you used the cowpat word. I am sooo offended. I was thinking about this relationship thing recently. For me basically, well I spent about 6 years seriously involved in the cult. But I think I would have to add to that a whole bunch of years of having to get sort of normal again in terms of having relationships and all that kind of stuff. It is like I drifted out on a boat for six years and had to spend another six years or so rowing back to shore.
I guess I don't want to be too specific about things on the forum. Maybe in a PM if you are really interested. In general, I could say that I transferred all those weird devotee transfers of power to the relationships I had later. Like when you grow up in a dysfunctional family and kind of keep recreating it even though it sucks. It took me a long time to finally find my way out of it again.
I knew another person who I suspect went through the same thing.
Anyway, things are great for me now. It just took awhile. And my wife and I are planning in our late years to adopt a child. I'm not as old as probably most here though. I'm 45 and my wife is 41.