Funny you mention the 'young man's promenade down the invisible catwalk'. I spend a lot of time questioning myself, too much even, and often I do wonder why I do anything. It's only quite lately that I've been able to do things just for me, because I want to.There's the problem - coming to some kind of realisation about the cultyness of things (I like the term 'Rawatism') necessarily involves figuring out which parts of my personality are driven by it and which parts of it are mine.
Yeah, you're right, I have been caught up in the sense of exclusiveness to some degree.
I stand by calling him 'charismatic' though - inasmuch as 'to have charisma' means 'to be able to captivate an audience and guide their thought processes to where you want them to go', he's very good. We have a new evangelical church here in New Zealand (first of its type, or at least loudest and most prominent of its type) which is basically one very charismatic leader and a whole bunch of homophobia parading as 'family values', and it's charisma in that sense that I'm talking about.
