I don't know you, but I've been reading here for awhile & even posted here until I was tired of being continuously insulted for the same things you have been saying. When I first heard satsang I really wanted to believe that this was it. I had been searching for a long time for the purpose of life. And it did feel right to me - and to this day I feel that I am a better person for having been a premie. I feel that I learned the meaning of excellence - of giving my all to something I truly believed in. I feel like I learned how to love unconditionally, and that I was loved in return for the effort I made. I was an ashram premie until the ashrams closed. I was happy that they closed, for I felt it was time to move on to the next phase of my life. I now have a family and a career, and feel that they also are benefitting from my life with Maharaji. I no longer practice knowledge, but still keep in touch with what goes on with premies
and don't have any regrets about time "wasted." I feel sorry for the people on this forum who say they are here to help people move on, yet they cannot move on themselves. This was not some great conspiracy to make Maharaji a rich man - at least it didn't start out that way. I don't agree with the direction that the organization is going in today. I don't think that the Keys are going to bring people to knowledge. It seems like the sincerity, spontaniety and magic is long gone and now everything is being controlled by a specific marketing plan by a group of corporate businessmen. That is not something that I wish to participate in. But even to this day when I hear Maharaji address an audience of premies, I still feel something - the same thing I felt when I first heard him. And at that time, I am not thinking of his lifestyle, his millions, or his organization. There is still the same connection that was always there.
I admire you for coming here and taking a stand among your peers - and for taking responsibility for your life and your choices. I'm sure you will be viciously attacked by those who professed to be your friends, for many people here have no tolerance for anyone who doesn't hate Maharaji & everything he stands for. I saw how every one of them turned on John MacGregor. At first they seemed to have compassion for his situation, but after time, he was being bashed just like the premie "trolls" who come here to disrupt the ex-premie cult. Anyway I don't belong here, but happened to read your post and you did ask for comments. So Livia - I'm glad to hear you're enjoying your life and wish you the best.