Where were the efforts to promote and advertise K? How come less and less where actually attending programs? I knew then that M had taken a wrong turn in propogation.

I think you hit the nail on the head there. I received K in 1973 and found EPO in 2003 (and subsequently left). The minute I found out what M was really like, I was out of it. But during all those years, EV continuously went on and on about the huge numbers of people receiving K (as if quantity, rather than quality, is something to be proud of). But what's really weird is that the numbers attending the programmes always seemed to remain the same. Or even went down in number.

It became evident to me, that no matter how many people received K, (at least as stated by EV), that the numbers attending programmes did not increase. It doesn't take rocket science to figure out that something was going hugely wrong. For M, and his premie success rate.

At Ally Pally in 2003 there were less people there than 30 years previously! It just doesn't add up. And this was a programme where the whole of Europe had been invited!! I dread to think what the numbers would have been if it had been restricted to UK only!! LOL

Also the atmosphere was very different. In 1973 it was all very new and exciting and also hopeful. But after 30 years of M messing things up, the programme in 2003 was more like something out of the Stepford Wives. Premie clones everywhere - and I was one of them.

I also think that the problem isn't the fault of premies, or the organisation, or the PAMS, but of M himself. He lives in a cossetted environment, where his every whim is catered for and where he is surrounded by sycophants. All he has to do is bark out his orders, and everyone jumps to attention. That's very unhealthy and counterproductive for anyone who wants to be successful. It's not possible to make good, strong, successful decisions when you're allowed to have tantrums, be verbally abusive, and then not be told to f*** off!!

I remember how concerned I was in the 70's that when, in the future, millions of people had K, that it would be hard to ever get darshan or to be physically close to M. I even remember some mahatmas telling us that we must make the most of seeing M right now (70's) because in the future so many millions of people would be clamouring to see him, that we would not get a chance. How wrong they were!! May be millions of people have received K, but they certainly aren't bothering show up at the programmes!

And I bet all the devoted premies from the 70's are secretly relieved that M has such a low success rate. It means that they can still get to see him close up.

M has had his way, pretty much, with all the decisions about propagation over the years, without anyone telling him that his decisions were flawed. That's why the numbers don't add up. Also, of course, his main concern is his luxury lifestyle - not his premies. No wonder the result of 30 years is failure.

All the best to you
Anna