I didn't email you following either of your two posts and neither did I reply on the forum. I was very sensitive to the stress and pressure that it appeared you were experiencing.

You say that you are hurting "psychologically, financially and physically". You must be aware that through your actions, so are other exes who have maintained a very dignified silence. Some of them I know have been waiting patiently for you to make contact, but you have not.

So how do you feel about the considerable money that some ex-premies gave/lent you, in response to your requests, for your legal defense against the cult? Given that you have now backtracked so far, do you feel that you took their money under false pretenses? Would you consider repaying that money when and if your circumstances allow in the future?

They read your forum post saying you intended to give money to Rawat. Whose money are you giving if you owe money to them? You slapped them in the face with that post John. Right now they are hurting psychologically and financially. It was enough to get done over by the cult without being cheated again in this way by someone they helped purely out of compassion.

An email or phone call at least would have gone quite a way. Failure to do so appears that you hold them in contempt. Do you know who your friends are John?