---I’m hurting psychologically, financially and physically--I wish that was not the case !
That WAS reflected in your post John, and I think, as insightful readers, each person here responded/reacted to this or that sentence in your post.
You say of our responses to your post "none are accurate".
Well, that is just not true.
Truth exists, we look for it here, we deal in this exact topic you posted about, and we are a great resource that is a plus for you and not an inaccurate minus.
I wish you well, and again I mention my concern about the harm caused by pot usage.