John,

You keep saying you want to get on with your life, but this is the second time you've posted on this forum, discussing your "apology," saying that you don't want to interact with ex-premies anymore, including here (that makes 3 posts total with you not responding to anyone here).  So, do that -- move on -- no one is stopping you!

I haven't emailed anything to you, not in a long, long time.  Definitely not about your current situation.  I was too concerned about your mental health. 

But, I do recommend that instead of plopping these strange posts into Forum 8 like you've been doing, that you draft a letter to all the people you don't want to hear from via email and sent it to them.  That would be the grown-up thing to do. 

And, I highly recommend that you resist the temptation to post on Forum 8 anymore. Given you're not willing to talk to anyone here, it's kind of pointless, don't you think?

Take care of yourself and have a great life.

Cynthia