I think you said what I did below a lot better and a lot more concisely.  Thanks.

I didn't realize that you had left so recently.  Isn't it amazing how quickly the walls start falling down?

The feelings I remember most when I left were strangely contradictory:

1) residual cult-fear that I had blown it (always with me telling myself that I would be okay and to move on)

2) An incredible excitement that I had gotten my life back and the possibilities that lay before me.