But for me the positive and helpful thing in my life is Maharaji and Knowledge.

For me the positive and helpful thing is just being honest. It's clear that Maharaji has put himself on a par with God, and has even proclaimed himself "greater than God", and you know it. There's no ambiguity about what he meant. But because you've invested so much in Maharaji as being your saviour, you've adopted a typical cult member's attitude which forbids the simple ability of just dealing with the truth head on.

Maybe it just doesn't matter to you what Maharaji does or says. I don't know. But I suspect that it's human nature to want to know the truth, whatever that may be. So, I suspect that underneath your veneer of sophistry, it's got to be eating at you that you're just not facing the truth about this. I don't see how Knowledge can help you with that. Maybe for you it doesn't have to. Maybe, for you, all it has to do is to help you run away.