Do you remember eknath? that was the devotee rawat was dreaming of, bretscher took up the theme in almost every satsang for a long time.
I believe he thought for himself that he is this devotee.
Similar like rawat talking about maharaji in the third person.The topic is very interesting because the wishes for superdevotees came up stronger when it got clear that things weren't going that well. Like Hanuman did all the job for Rama, Rawat was probably waiting for some of those guys to show up. He believed he is the one, and those devotees that choose devotion must be somewhere around. Now where are they?
toby