I have a question for you. You say you have been a premie since 1974. Did you ever sing Arti? It would have been hard to avoid that back then, although you could have been one of the cynical premies who kind of slunk around the back of the satsang hall and didn't participate. If you did, what did it mean to you back then when you were saying all those words like "superior power in person, you are my mother, etc"? Did you mean those words when you sang them or was it just a way to stay awake?