I was given the service of preparing a conference room for Rawat and associates and was told to put an ashtray at his seat. I was naive enough to ask why and was told that he smokes but I was not to tell any premis because they wouldn't understand. I was expected to keep the secret because I was being allowed to do service close to him. I was upset because I remember him telling premies not to smoke and this seemed so hypocritical, but I tried to think it was a lila, and even told myself that it didn't matter because it was such a small thing.Anything that happened around him was strictly confidential because "ordinary" premies simply weren't on a level of understanding that they could be told the truth. None of us attended the local "satsang" programs either because we were all beyond needing that any more (already brainwashed enough I guess). Sometimes one of us would attend to speak, but that's all... Rawat and associates make a lot of jokes at the expense of premies and laughed at them a lot. This upset me too but I felt "special" to be included in the group that laughed with him.
It turns out the joke was on me - I didn't know how brainwashed I was ....but this is also the time that the drips started. I stated to realize that there are several layers around Rawat. I was on the outside of the inner circle, but there were inner rings that I wasn't allowed into. so I wondered what it was that I didn't know about! I started observing more and realizing that there were things I wasn't being told. So Rawat Inc was probably laughing at me too!
I started to ask some questions about things. I wondered about Rawat's relationship with Monica, which was pretty obvious, but I was told to be quiet and say nothing about anything I saw. A close friend was admitted to the "X" rated ring and suddenly stopped talking to me. It was probably too hard to be around me and not want to share those secrets.
So, it is not about smoking...
It is about how Rawat tricks people into believing his lies and then abuses their trust and sincerity for his own personal use. He lies (about everything) and cheats (on his wife) and steals (from his followers). He is a petty, nasty and cruel person who uses and abuses the goodwill, love and trust of others.
