Hi Nem,

I "resigned" from the forums quite a few times, so you're right, I could have come back with an alias on more than one occasion.  My dilemma was that in the earlier forums there were so many trolls all the time, and I had already disclosed that I had been diagnosed with MPD and was in recovery then, so I felt I had to continue using my real name to avoid suspicion and confusion.  But, you're right, those were choices I've made and I take responsibility for them.

I also take responsibility for saying so much about myself online over the years using my real name.  But, I can't unring those bells now.  Shit, now when I Google my name it comes up under one of those awful premie websites, complete with libel, defammation of my character, and the premies' interpretation of my mental health.  But, I was the one who put that information out there for the cult to use.  Live and learn, I guess.

So I do apologize for being so hard on everyone here who has the good sense to protect themselves, their careers, and especially their families from the particularly aggressive and evil campaign that Rawat and Co. is now using against folks who want to use this forum as a place to help them heal from the effects of being a premie, and get over all the issues that come with recovery from having been a follower of Rawat.

Warm regards,

Cynthia