Nikw wrote
"intimate relationships require a capacity for vulnerability - and my take on premiedom is that at a very basic level most longtime premies seek invulnerability from their involvement with Rawat. It's the antithesis to being in a relationship - it's a kind of induced autism"
The (unconscious) desire for invulnerability was certainly a part of my motivation stay involved in SSB. And I think it harmed my ability for human relationships and compassion, because I tended to get arrogant for people who were badly affected by maya (career, death, disease etc.). After all, they were to blame for taking maya so seriously.
(I have some backlog in my e-mails to some posters, but that is because I had a flue or something like that and after work I could only sleep.)
Andries
