To the old premies he is the hidden LOTU, but to the public he is the inspirational speaker.  

Who the f**k cares. He is what he is. He can help a person know themself whether they believe him to be LOTU or not. If that is what one wants, then take his help and leave everything else behind.

I had committed myself to a lifetime in the ashram and a lifetime of service and surrender. I was pushed out without so much as a thank you. You think maybe I have a reason to question what he is doing?

Now we're getting somewhere. You handed over the keys expecting to be chauffeured for the rest of your life, and one day they were handed back and you were told you had to learn how to drive yourself. This a common bug up some ex-premies' arses. Well sweetie, I did the same thing. But on learning to drive, I discovered that was the best thing for me. Not only am I happy now to drive for myself, but I am grateful he took the time to drive me around before I was able.