Lucky for us, there is a meciful lord who cares about our heart, and does no set us up for failure by asking us to do the impossible.

What is the impossible? Trying to attain various perfections.

Am I, are we, suppose to live like rawat wanted us to? Endlessly trying with no way to advance?

The reason there is no way to advance, is because of kindness.

We are asked to believe a lie that we are doomed to endless lifetimes of trouble till we -get it-.

Whatever -it- is.

Instead, we struggle to live with unstable grounding till we find footing.

The one that makes sure no one can live without troubles, is the same one that tries to steer us away from the lord.

Our footing, comes from interests first, then when and as they show failure gaps, if we are lucky, we find the other one, the one that responds to our asking for help moment to moment.

We have to deny god if we try to become god. And that is the story right from the garden of eden story......YOU can become god.

That is the only interesting thing from the old testament for me.

That part. There is truth in that. The game here is either we find god, or, we walk the road of trying to be god ourselves.

Spirit guides only can exist if we think we can attain godhead ourselves, and that it is not only a worthy, goal, but our mission impossible to accomplish.

That was the terrible accursed notion that rawat laid on our head.

It is not true. It is the great lie. Stepan is with the lord. Not with tormetors who are judgeing him.

That is the devils idea. Hell.

The road to godhead is the road to hell, and Stepan did not take that road. He wanted improvement, and the lord granted it.

The lord is kindness. Sure it is a crazy world. But do we really want this planet to just be people standng around restating the obvious?

No, and niether does the lord.

So, here we are, devil or lord, and no matter how we do, the lord especially respects the childlike heart. Which as you know, Stepan had in spades.

Ask your roommate to either decide for one or the other, and then make the decision if you want that kind of person in your ear at this time. How is it possible for the lord to assign tormentors to your child?

How is it possible for the lord to dismiss his childlike heart?

He said exactly that the childlike heart is for heaven.

And Stepan only had that.