It was interesting for me to read this thread. Although I got out of the cult a long time ago, I also went through a process of re-examining my beliefs and behavior after reading through EPO. Even way back then, I realized that I had put myself under the very same kind of thought control apparatus that you describe. I just didn't allow myself to think about it too much. Or maybe I did actually think about these things but would detach myself from myself from these thoughts as being the evil mind trying to deceive.I mean really, you don't actually need EPO. I think my wife proved that a while back. The whole thing doesn't make sense from the start. That's why most people simply never fall for it in the first place. I guess the way it works is that once you fall for it, it is hard to find your way out again.
Also what my wife didn't experience was love bombing while having your logical processes incessantly attacked. It really is like a virus attack. At first your immune system puts up a fight, but if they find a weak spot you are done in. In bed with fever and a runny nose for thirty years. At least they give you a blanket to put over your head.
