Hello,

I'm a bit surprised to hear that you believe God can be found.

Do you believe that it is God's will that he be found by you?  Or is it just your own will?  Do you think God is hiding from you until your "internal contemplation" reaches deep enough?  Or do you think you will find God when you succeed in tricking your own will to deny itself and submit to IT's will?  And what if you found God and IT was terrifying?  You might die.

I figure that if God wants to reveal Itself, then IT will do so.

Therefore, we should busy ourselves with what we can comprehend and let God worry about the rest.  I think IT would agree with me on that.