It's good to know that you feel better about things than I realised from your first post. 

The gooroo people are harrassing me in real life

Sorry to hear that, and really glad to know that you won't be intimidated by them.  I've not had any harrassment, but I know a premie that has -a premie, not an ex! 

There's something seriously wrong with EV's attitude and the way the go about things.  Secrecy, lies, exclusion, everything  on a 'need to know' basis, and they all mis-trust each other, and lie to each other too!  I know this, because I've witnessed it, first hand, in recent weeks.  Obviously I'm not going to go into detail, but believe me, it's really weird, and I'm glad I'm out of it!

With a leader like M, I suppose it's not surprising.  And most premies are lovely people too.  How they get caught up in this type of behaviour is a mystery to me.  It must be very stressful living like that, and false. How can they equate this behaviour with the world of 'knowledge' and supposed Truth, is beyond me.