For one thing I do have a real problem with verbal/written language at the mo, musically, visually fine, but language is a bit of a stuggle, especially when dealing with areas like this which I don't really have a verbal language for.

The reason I used LTJ Bukem as an example is because there's a lot of soul for want of a better word in his work, and soul here means close to the kinda sensitivity vibe, internal gentleness and strength that I loved in the Apostles album, almost trippy but not quite, like the first hour of a trip that's gonna be a really special one for you, but before it's fully kicked in, and before you're out there, so you're even more rooted in your physical reality because you're hyper aware, same for the comedown period where your whole being feels completely stretched and very relaxed. Julia Howe at her best was another example, Fairport Convention on Unhalfbricking when they do a Sailors Life or Who Knows Where The Time Goes, hopefully you get the drift, it's that shivery feeling when a moment feels special, it's that kinda deep.
The kinda experience and understanding that comes when your brain is set up the way mine is, is that those body mind experiences that trigger the kind of territory I just talked about is what has kept me sane in this life, I mean that literally. There have been a number of routes I've travelled that have increased the likelihood of those experiences occurring, early days acid, meditation, relationships/love, mushrooms, e's, cricket, food, exercise, hard work, nature, but most reliably, music and contacts through musical activity and meditation.

But we're talking about k.
Meditation taught me that I did not need to take drugs or externals to trigger head states in the same territory, on a nigh on daily basis, it also taught me that it wasn't the techniques that were important but how and where I was focusing ,and where I was focusing myself emotionally whilst doing so and how comfortable I was with myself while doing that and I realized that this was likely to be true for other areas of my life.

It drastically increased my self respect and respect for my inner voice, that was very easily drowned by the lack of respect for life I saw all around me, and my inability to be able to cope with that, leading to scrambled thoughts etc etc
I also found over time that it gets harder to differentiate between the effects of the food route I've gone, my philosophy of living, and meditation, they trigger very similar reactions inside my body/mind and are quite circular in their effects

It helped me explore my relationship with the body through sport, I played a lot of golf in the spirit of zen and the art of archery or tim galways inner game stuff. Meditation, breathing awareness, and the kind of warm energy/wave rushes I've had from meditation since about 6 months of practicing, were key to that, and know damn well that what I learnt there I so recognized on the dance floor when I started going to raves, which made my transition into that scene so much smoother.

But one of the weirdest offshoots was that it really got me into science much more deeply than I ever had before, and it helped me track down the area I was most interested in.

Because of my increased awareness of the body mind intereaction I became very interested in networks, wanted to find out about the dynamics of networks, got into systems theory and cybernetics, did a degree in systems modelling.