I am sorry that you have had such a traumatic time over the last 3 years but I am very happy to hear that you broke free. You probably know from your readings of the websites that many of us here were enslaved Assfollowers (I like your humour!) for decades - so well done!

"He sucked up my soul"

Yes, you can really find that your surrender your personal power and spirit to the 'Ass'. Add your time, money, friends and family and what is left? That is what has happened to some old time premies that I know. They are facing old age with nothing more than total trust in an imaginary friend and Lord. For them it is too confronting to face the shocking, perhaps devasting truth.

I'm pleased that you had the advice and support of such a good doctor and even more the precious love for your family. One of the most destructive things about involvement in the cult is how it can interfere with the important relationships in one's life.

I'm really glad that the forums and websites have helped you. I found them invaluable when I came out of the cult about 6 years ago. In fact, if it were not for the information I read there, I could well be still in the cult. There are some good people here and I have had the pleasure to meet and become friends with some of them since.

For me life gets better and better the further I travel forwards from my days as an AF. I wish the same for you.

Warm regards,