Yep, you got that right.  It was my inability to not see the dehumanization that caused me most of the problems and made it hard for me to surrender.  The cult actually started out with some humanitarian goals, but those were subsumed and extinguished as Rawat's megalomania consumed it all. 

By 1977 or so, coming to full flower by 1979, Rawat was basically telling us to feel guilty for having any human values other than serving him.  That's how bad it got.

I have not seen Vera Drake yet, but my secretary loved it and highly recommends it.  As soon as it is available on Netflix, which it isn't just yet.

I went to see a really great film called "The Wild Parrots of Telegraph Hill" which I loved.  It's about this flock of parrots that live in San Franciso, and this incredible guy who got to know them.  Great film, apparently being released nationwide.

Joe, who, despite Netflix,  still tries to support his local video store, but never, ever Blockbuster.

And how are you doing.  Still in Cornwall?