I still get massive amounts of good stuff when practicing the techniques, but it was never just about the meditation for me from very early.

A life in the spirit of satsang, service and meditation was always the core, before I got knowledge, while I was a premie, and after. Not that unusual either even in the atheists here. Because in the end, the reason why they were premies, the spirit they show, has nothing to do with belief structures, and everything to do with a committment as a person to life.

Also one of the key things about being an ex, and sorry to be so patronising here, is that it is one of those experiences, that until you experience it for yourself, you cannot imagine how liberating it can be.