I can't blame John for doing what he did  because I don't know what I would do in the same situation.

Yep, I guess that's true. However, there's a part of me ...stubborn and fearless as I can sometimes be....that makes me think I wouldn't give a fuck if they tried to intimidate me : ) Don't get me wrong, I've got no " martyr complex" or anything and I know it'd probably be a " David/Goliath" scenario but I think my sense of fairness and justice would be a great asset especially when those qualities don't figure in Rawat's mind.

. Maybe that's naive. Maybe big bucks and an army of psychophants/sickophants would always win out but who knows? I think I could come up with something to convert the tussle into a national ( maybe international) issue and genuine public exposure is akin to daylight & vampires as far as Rawat's concerned.Anyway, whatever...I'm not inviting it, obviously, but i just want the cultists to know that they don't frighten me. Not at all.

Having said that, John still has the integrity not to disavow anything he wrote or said.  Which means, I hope that there is hope.

The troubling thing is, though, It wouldn't surprise me if Rawat wants total surrender...abject surrender....so I wouldn't be surprised to read a personal critique of his earlier work. Rawat might want John's tongue further up his asshole than it already is.