Dear Premie,

I don't think that anybody really believes you when you adamantly claim to not care about what other people are doing, (which seems to be the main point that you are trying to make here).  First, you are phrasing this proclamation in a vague way - what level of uncaring are you talking about?   But secondly, and more importantly, human beings DO care about what other people are doing and thinking.  It's human nature, and we all know it, no matter how much we or anybody else might say that they don't care.  If a child smiles at you, you will be affected.  If somebody calls you stupid, you will be affected.  Even if you try to harden your heart or toughen your skin.  By the way, sorry I called you stupid, but I did say that you probably aren't as stupid as you appear to be, so that was kinda nice of me.

When you are in a cult, you have do deal with those pesky other people and their negative view of your cult.  It comes with the territory.  There is absolutely no way around it.  You know that.  That is why you have toughened your skin and hardened your heart to all us outsiders.

Let me tell you a little secret.  One of the pleasures of becoming an ex, and there are many, is that you can soften your heart in a more universal way again.  It's nice.