As you say, what a relief to snap out of it. Hooray for Ex Premie Org. Another thing I remember thinking as I exited is that the old saying the cream rises to the top was happening here at the forum.
Now that time has passed and I have hindsight there's a few things that stand out. No.1) Just how stinky Rawat is, I am probably still naive but His Horribleness only grows. No.2). How horrifically deluded I was - eternal gratitude to EPO and this forum which has in effect held my hand as I came to my senses. No.3) how very vulnerable we are to it, and No.4) what a mess our species is in.