Thanks for asking, I'm doing my best to be ok in this mad process.  Though I hadn't been a regular "premie" for years, for 40 odd years I have continually held the belief somewhere in my mind that "guru is greater than god", and would attend the occasional event, do a little meditation etc.  So I'm only a year out of that mindset.  Everything feels a little upside down or back to front at times, I have a feeling of relief at not surrendering to that bullshit, and also lots of anger surfaces.  Rawat is coming to a town near me very soon so I have to contend with awkward chats with folk who are going, and am trying not to freak at anyone, or talk too bluntly - am thinking their time will come to exit the cult.  Too many good folk are peeling off from the guru worship these last few years and this makes others ask questions, I hope. 

  There's a feeling of,spiritually, starting again, maybe looking for a meditation group, I do like meditation.  I could go on for ages on how I am doing, its a huge question - I hope you're ok. 

  Best wishes