It's always interesting for me to hear how the drips get through and the waking up begins. 

I had stopped meditating for a while and also found it impossible to sit through a dvd, yet my belief wasn't challenged until someone suggested that the money currently being fundraised for his latest jet, hundreds of millions, would be better spent at food for the people.

I burst into tears. 

I didn't accept the facts right away. I thought I was crying for those who "needed' to see him. However it didn't take too long for those words to haunt me a bit longer and then from there for me to start to be able to hear other pieces of info that I would have outright dismissed before hand. 

Self serving behaviour still looks like self serving behaviour even when you're meant to be the living master of the time.

Good luck with putting up with the 'coming soon to a town near you' stuff.

Two of my closest friends in the cult know I'm out but a lot of them don't. The 2 dont communicate any more. The communications I get from those who don't know I'm out is increasingly challenging. I find it hard not to make a comment on some facebook posts. I met a premie I didn't know last year, just randomly, who started waxing lyrical about m bringing world peace.  I had said that I used to follow him and left it at that. I was with a good friend of mine who has never been a cult member. The premie decided this was a good moment to get into a satsang groove on behalf of this one who didn't know about the lard, thus the world peace stuff. I was uncomfortably reminded of how I had often enough done a similar thing.

 I couldn't shut up anymore and basically said I don't believe anything he's doing is going to bring world peace i'm sorry. I guess she could tell from that sentence that I did not hold him in the same regard as her.

Oh well at least he's trying , she said

...yeah, sure.