Even after I knew there was nothing there I can't believe I spent 3K to go to Amaroo;  I was selling real estate during the boom of the time so it didn't seem like that much money but I think it was the final closure for me  - I wanted to make sure  I hadn't left any stone unturned.  Just in case. I guess I knew that was the only place where I would be able to go right before him, look him right in the eye, and not at his feet, and that's what I did.