Experience is relative to what you believe you have already experienced. When it comes around to validating beliefs, experience cannot be the depended on to yield unbiased answers.

If you are using in your opinion ''experience" as the source of reliable evidence needed to reach a point where you know that a belief is true beyond a reasonable doubt you are chasing a perpetual and elusive myth in a circle.

Here is my case in point; as a premie I was lost or at the very least severely subjected by my own deep rooted desire to follow m's directions and arga. I needed to believe in what I was taught to believe in to support reliable evidence in the matter of M and the cult. Consequently, I looked for and conditioned my experience to validate and fit into the belief system of m and the cult.

If I came up with a logical argument in favor of examination of these beliefs they were quickly dismissed as "being of my crazy mind". So instead of objective appraisal I suppressed reliable evidence in favor of experience. Does this ring a bell? I would actually dismiss reliable evidence with impunity in order to preserve "my experience". 

You see, I  was so emotionally invested in m, knowledge and the cult that I would compromise my own understanding and integrity to fit the circumstances of "my experience"..

I molded the story and the myth of m into my views of  life and created my world around this core belief. I became so attached and committed to these notions that I soon called it "my experience".  This is the subtle mind set that distorts what we percieve as reliable evidence and ultimately even in the face of facts casts our experience.

My experience of m was contingent on my agreement with conditioned beliefs about m designed to re-inforce my experience of the same and it just went around and round.

As soon as I released myself  from the clutches of this round robin perpetration; I discovered that my life experience, and life itself for that matter had nothing to do with m, or the cult. The reality of my life lies beyond m, religion or any other dogma.

Maharaji himself is just another concept that can be substituted and adapted to fit the need to fill a certain spiritual profile that we as human beings seem compelled to ponder in life.

M and the rest of the spiritual predatory practices thrive on uncertainty and dependance. Its better to fill your own cup and not drink from anothers. 

It takes courage to let go of it all and to see what is next, it takes trust in yourself and great personal responsibility to find faith and belief in yourself. 

What lies beyond m, cults and dogma is the great possibility to discover your own sense of spirit and truth.

But how would you know? You would need to let go of m and the cult to find out.